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May. 27th, 2009 @ 12:21 pm viewpoint
sculder
i love the place i live right now. i've wanted to live here ever since i first saw it nearly 20 years ago, and it's just as delightful as i thought it would be except for the lack of cell phone reception, and now that everything is growing and blooming it's even more fun. "hey LOOK! i have fruit trees! OMG are those grapevines?? blackberry bushes!!!" if i could just get rid of the tree zombie it'd be paradise.

but, like most things do, it got to be commonplace for me very quickly. i still enjoyed it, but i sort of... i dunno, expanded my expectations to fill what i have so it evened out, i guess. i got a little bit of a jolt of appreciation last week when my GM (which still stands for general manager, folks, not game master, very disappointing (really, i shall have to speak with him about that)) raved about his new house in the middle of nowhere like a kid with a shiny new bike. and another when it started raining monday and everything was fresh and drenched and i went and stood in the rain under my very own birch tree.

the best one, though, was last night when i brought home a friend who's back in town for a few weeks. it was a great mood-altering drug to see it from her perspective, to watch her discovering all the enchanting nooks and crannies (she was the one who pointed out the blackberry bushes, which have just started blooming) and generally seeing everything for the first time. it reminded me of how i loved to have people visit when i lived in fort collins, because seeing them in awe of the rockies made them magical for me all over again. it's like watching someone in the first thrilling stages of falling in love, and you can ride along with that energy.

i've mentioned it before, but i feel very spoiled this week. it's good.
May. 26th, 2009 @ 11:38 pm that's a good question, me! i'm glad you asked that! um...
nanowin
he's right - why HAVE i been callously neglecting my blogginesses for so long?

well. i was talking about why i haven't been writing much in general with a writer friend who just got back in town, and we stumbled around to the fact that i probably need a refill. i've been writing in various venues (and with decreasing success, even by personal, write-to-stay-sane standards) for so long without doing much reading or taking a class or eavesdropping in diners or... you know, anything writer-brain recharge-y... that i just kinda ran out. the ideas are still in there, but i'm in starvation metabolism mode. i'm outta gas.

then, too, when i did write i was always writing for an audience. i hadn't done any personal journaling for a long time. so naturally when i started to get clogged up and stuck, it spilled over into blogging too. i kinda got chucked into extreme introvert mode or something.

i think it's time to fix that. to that end, i bought some books and a new notebook tonight. i truly enjoy reading voraciously and poking around in my own brain via journaling, so it shouldn't be too much of a strain to start up either of those again. *grin* and then, i hope, stuff'll start to break loose and i can story and blog again just like nothing ever happened.

lucky you.
May. 25th, 2009 @ 07:06 pm may 25th
sculder
happy towel day, everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! yes, i've been carrying it.

it's also world tarot day, and i've celebrated by buying two new decks. *grin* i blame amazon's super saver shipping.
Mar. 2nd, 2009 @ 06:53 pm i, er, have to learn to crochet
dork
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see... i was in a bookstore this weekend and, along with three science mags (all nicely dogeared and highlighted and scribbled in the margins of, thank you) i acquired (ominous music here): the "creepy cute crochet" book.

do i know how to crochet? i do not. could i resist the tiny vampires and cthulu and THE CUTEST LITTLE REAPER OMG? i could not. admit it, neither can you.

*sigh*

i will continue to pretend i don't know how these things happen.
Feb. 20th, 2009 @ 09:54 pm guilt by association?
dork
for reasons i will probably never be able to put my finger on, this LOLcat makes me think of [info]arti_absinthium:

http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2009/01/funny-pictures-cat-eats-coloured-light-bulbs.jpg

happy caturday, obs! *grin*
Feb. 16th, 2009 @ 11:20 am the trials of being a pampered pet
the mickdog has a new set of dishes - an automatic feeder and an automatic waterer, which are supposed to make both of our lives easier and more convenient and assure that he never has to wait for a human to care for his needs, and of which he is terrified.

*sigh*

he had the feeder for about a week, and he was leery of it but got used to it. sooooo the waterer was introduced. and... no. HELL no. that waterer, it bubbles. he is having NONE of that shit, fuck you very much. for a couple of days, he'd drink from it if i stood over him and agitated the water already in the bowl with my finger. (i... know, but it worked, okay?) i thought he was doing ok with it until i noticed he wanted to be let out so much because he was going outside to drink.

well that just won't do. i tried rePEATedly to explain to him various laws of physics, personal canine luxury, and my preference to not be woken up by the melodious sounds of an empty water dish being scootched across the new floor. i told him to think of the bubbles as helpful little creatures only existing to serve him. i even tried a few digs at his doggy pride ("look, hamsters are fine with this kind of thing. i'm pretty sure even sheep figure it out."), but all for naught. i think if it hadn't snowed the other day, he would have stubbornly dehydrated completely.

so, for now, the regular water dish is back. it's RIGHT NEXT TO the disturbing one, and he still drinks from it with his neck telescoped to three times its normal length, but he's drinking again. (and so am i. yeesh.)

charmingly, he's also taken to skulking around the corner of the couch to bark aimlessly at the feeder. niiiiice. the feeder is staying, mickerpoo. i've told him this. he understands english, just not that MUCH english, apparently. or maybe he's deliberately misunderstanding, which i wouldn't put past him.

take note, gentle readers: this is what happens when you spoil your pets. how spoiled is he? even as i type this, he wants to get on the couch. he's allowed to do this, and he always asks, so that's not a big deal. but i have stuff on his side of the couch. i'm nesting.

"psst. buddy. couch?"
"not right now, hon."
"psst... couch??"
"you know you'll just get right back down again... there's too much stuff there, see? there's knitting and notebooks and a bottle of metromint and laundry and books and a camera and-"
"COUCH??"
"not right now."
"dude, i know you can move all that stuff. please?"
"don't call me dude."
"i won't kick any of it off."
"you will. yer feets too big."
*ears fall* "...couch?"
*sigh*

so, what i have now done is to move mySELF to the side of the couch with the notebooks and the books and the knitting and the bottle of metromint and the water and the blanket and the packages to mail, and the dog is in my spot.

it must be rough, i tell ya. but he's still not getting his old food dish back.
Feb. 10th, 2009 @ 01:00 am well. that happened.
sculder
apparently there will be no getting on with it just yet. saturday night at work, crazy happened. anyone who might be concerned about water cascading down walls of their house should stay away from me, is what i think you should take away from this tale.

i suspect it all started when the manager on duty went to bed, and i said "good night! let's hope i don't have to call and wake you up tonight!"

not more than ten minutes later, some people on second floor (who were already having a bad night, having been kept awake by the blue grass band that had set up in the second floor alcove) called to say there was water pouring down from the floor above. security (consisting of one man) went to investigate. turns out the kids in a room on third had left the water running in the tub. two rooms on second were pretty much unihabitable, as was the bedroom in the room above.

if only that was the whole story. heh. there was not one single room open to move the people in these rooms to. "things" were done, which i'm fairly sure i can't discuss here, to remedy that... partly. there were three entirely different noise issues, which i had to troop down and deal with myself each time, since the manager and the security force (which, you will recall, is just the one guy) were dealing with the source of the water and the resulting sogginess and irateness AND the room whose heat was stuck on 80deg, AND taking extra blankets to yet another room. once i had to explain that i was very sorry someone was being disturbed, but i simply was not going to duct tape the autistic child who was crying. once i had to explain to the band (who were quite good, actually), again, that some of our guests preferred not to hear music after midnight. and once i played pied piper to a room of people being louder than they thought ("it's all those two guys! they're the loud ones!" "well they're more than welcome to come to the lobby and be as loud as they want. we have comfy chairs there. i can take it.") who kept me company until three in the morning and who were perfectly nice about being told to shut up. as the three of us were calling maintenance and calling the GM (which i wish stood for "game master" but which, sadly, stands for "general manager") and fielding phone calls about everything imaginable ("yes, the restaurant opens at 7..." "sure, i can change your reservation!" "your room doesn't have power? i'll take care of that." (you think i'm joking, but i'm so not. yeah, as a matter of fact i CAN do anything, if i have to.) "yeah, mister GM who thinks he's funny, we have a new indoor water slide.") people wanted towels, which of course had been depleted, so i had to brave the housekeeping caves. after the first trip i gave up on the elevator and was just bounding up and down the stairs. two people wandered down at different times to get medicine for sick kids. oddly, each time that happened, the phones stopped ringing and there was no other interruption. those two episodes were possibly the most surreal of the night, somehow. i had so many room numbers in my head my short term memory was starting to crack, so i began writing them down and circled one note and managed to make it look like a cock and balls and found this WAY TOO FUNNY.

all told, the entire clusterfuckfest took about an hour and a half, maybe a bit less. it was the kind of invigorating in a twisted way. and then, abruptly, it was all over except the paperwork.

the first thing i said to the GM the next morning was, "i want nothing whatsoever to do with the floor repair in any of those rooms." heh. then, THENNNNNNNNNN, someone mentioned "floods, fire, plague!" i was aghast. whyyyyeeee! why would they dooooo that? naturally, someone else brought up locusts as i stood gaping.

damn locusts.
Feb. 8th, 2009 @ 12:29 pm laying floor
sculder
i now have a brandy new cork floor in my kitchen, due to the great flood of '09. that is to say, the flood made a new floor necessary by trashing the old floor, not that it helped in any way at all to install the new one.

it wasn't fun. perfectionists should never be allowed to work on a floor install together, especially not when they're different styles of perfectiony. more help is not necessarily helpful in any accepted sense of the word. hair nets should be worn while poly is being applied. knee pads wouldn't come amiss either. dogs... much cuter than people, but also supremely unhelpful. repeated speculation on whether i missed a spot? similarly unhelpful. conversations you never, ever think you'll have to have: "steff, do you realize what 'brush from the wet edge of the polyurethane' means??" "unless it means 'leave me the hell alone, i'm trying to seal the floor,' we're done talking." (evidently, that's not what it means, because there was very little talking between then and when everyone left me alone. heh.)

but it is DONE and it is pretty and as soon as i find the power cord to my camera i'll post floor porn.
Jan. 30th, 2009 @ 02:17 pm side trip
3 toes on one foot
there was something else that went here, but i'm going on a rant instead.

it's my way.

i just... i mean... *sigh* it's like...

ok, even when i was little, i always hated the flintstones, you know? i got sooooo frustrated with them. i wouldn't be surprised if my first ever "talking to the people on tv" incident happened during an episode of the flintstones. i just never understood why they didn't TALK to each other! why didn't fred just say, "i'm having problems at work, and i want to go bowling with my friends tonight"? wilma didn't seem like that much of a bitch. why didn't wilma just say, "i bought a new dress, and i'm running off with the clerk at the bowling alley because of your constant lying"? what the HELL was WRONG with these people?

now i feel like i've grown up to be one of those people. my editors take their job very seriously. and... uh... something something limerance, yadda-yadda dichotomy, this and that trade-off...

eh. rant fizzled. now i'm just peeved at myself. *grin* really, honest, i had something of substance, not just whining. maybe if i could figure out a way to actually take my laptop into the shower with me, i wouldn't have this problem.
Jan. 30th, 2009 @ 01:17 pm refrigerators aside...
dork
i said it at the time, and after watching it again the other night, i still say lucas didn't screw up the last indiana jones. spoilers )
Jan. 24th, 2009 @ 07:29 pm mmmmmeme
dork
from that "me." person: my johari window.
Jan. 10th, 2009 @ 03:56 am jack of perhaps a dozen or two trades
sculder
i am not, as i keep protesting to the knitting friends i seem to have accumulated, a knitter. i knit. but i'm not, nor do i ever intend to become, A Knitter.

thanks to the lovely and talented daen wiser, i know how to knit in a very basic, here-let-me-show-you-before-you-leave-the-country kind of way. since she got me started, i have knitted some rectangles, a tube, and even a tube with one end closed (also known as a "hat" - not a hat, mind you, but a "hat" as the sister can attest to), a mistake i'm not likely to repeat any time soon.

i'm fine with that.

my goal with knitting isn't to become better and better at it. i like knowing how to do it, i enjoy playing with the patterns that i can get from different combinations of the two stitches i know how to do, and given enough time i could probably make an afghan or something by stitching together enough rectangles. i'll probably keep doing it on a fairly regular basis, but not as a way to practice or improve or branch out and gain new, knitterly skills. i'll keep doing it because i've come to use it as a form of active(ish) meditation, and because yarn is tactile and pretty.

it's cool that when i'm done knitting something, i have a long rectangular... thing that i can then twine around my neck and pretend is a scarf. but while it would be cooler to be able to have a sweater when i was done (or even socks), that's simply not enough motivation for me to ever progress beyond the competence of, "yeah, i know how to knit."

in trying to convince someone of this, it suddenly occurred to me that this could be a function of my INTP urge to collect competencies. i don't have time or, in most cases, inclination to get really masterfully good at something because i'm on to the next thing. it's just what i do. i prefer to continue to learn broadly rather than deeply in most cases. (not all cases, but that's another issue.) i'm not quite sure how to articulate it, partly because it can vary so much. in some cases the stopping point is when i feel the mystery of a thing has been solved, whether or not i'm very good at it. in some cases, it's barely enough to carry on a scintillating dinner conversation, and in others it's enough expertise that i consider it an actual skill (like cooking) and not just something that i enjoy barely dabbling in (origami, cranes only) or can do in a pinch if i HAVE to (cutting firewood).

knitting falls somewhere in between dabbling and skill, i guess. that's in no way a commentary on knitting or knitters... it's just a reflection of a personality wrinkle, i think. i'll probably continue to get better at the narrow definition of "knitting" that i do because i've found it has useful side effects, even if i never actually add to my knit/purl skill set by, i don't know, learning to read a pattern or cable knit (does that require special needles? i don't even know). i've gotten good enough at it in a bare-bones kind of way that it's become enjoyable, and that's enough for me.

the two things seem to be reflective and illuminating of each other in a way i think i'm describing badly. knitting is an example of my tendency to become competent rather than expert at my interests. in turn, my habit toward dilettantism explains my utter lack of desire to learn to knit gloves or teddy bears or whatever. your mileage will almost surely vary, because INTP people aren't all that common. *grin*

(links should go here in some places. i'll add them later; you'll see.)
Jan. 10th, 2009 @ 03:30 am windows 7
sculder
"touch screen to replace mouse?" oh. hay-ell. no.

i don't like my mouse. i have been heard to rant against it and call it names. even my touchpad, which i like far better, is suspect, and i do as much as hotkeyily possible without touching either of the silly things. but if a touch screen is the best alternative they can come up with, they can have my mouse and/or touchpad when they pry it from my cold dead fingers.

i very much doubt this will fly among the OCD crowd anyway. my eyelids twitch when people touch a screen, and i'm just a garden variety control freak.
Jan. 9th, 2009 @ 02:46 am floods & etc.
outtacontrol
right. the great flood of '09, which was not so grate, akshully.

sooo... you know what, it's not that exciting. at all. my new house flooded and soaked most of everything i own, since it was still down in the basement, where all the water from the kitchen ran to. the end. the most memorable part of the actual flood was finding the dog sloshing through water with a "i swear, man, it wasn't me" look on his face and carrying his retriever toy, all set to abandon ship.

the aftermath has been worse, i think. there are HUGE fans and HUGE dehumidifiers and HUGE noise and the whole fucking house just vibrates all the time and i am not even kidding when i say i'm *this* close to a psychotic break. (if i ever need to torture POWs, i'll know exactly who to call. "bring the fans," i'll say.)

then last night when i got to work, we had an electrical fire on the roof first thing. nobody was hurt and the place didn't burn down or anything, but i had to deal with a fire on the property, which did not make me pleased. nor did the smell.

(that sophist man had something to do with it, i'm sure, because when i mentioned the flooding to him, the VERY FIRST THING HE SAID was "fire? flood? locusts??" *scans the skies for locusts* yeah, i've already said as much to him and he'll never read this, so i can say what i like about him with impunity anyway. impunity, i tell you! no pun whatsoever!)

today, i had the onset of an anaphylactic reaction. fortunately, my warning signs for that are fairly well-established and i was able to head it off with benadryl, though my fingertips still feel like they're burning and there are residual hives on my neck (which, oddly, never itched. huh.), just to remind me of what could happen... for... no apparent reason? i have no idea at all what triggered it.

(those cursed fans had something to do with THIS, i'm certain of it. also: three bennies and staying up all night at work? not an ideal situation.)

yep. there's my set of three for 2009. i hope. can we get on with it, now?
Jan. 8th, 2009 @ 04:38 am distracted by irony
dork
well, perhaps not strictly irony, but all the same...

i was going to put up entries about the great kitchen flood of '09 and the ensuing fans of doom and knitting and... such, but instead i am going to point you all toward fora.tv and relate some of the more biting concepts i've run across, in rapid succession, while browsing it.

(and then you can all go and look at neal stephenson reading the beginning of "anathem" and neil tyson talking about how to die in a black hole instead, which on the whole are far more entertaining. yes, there's a dave barry and an adam savage up there as well, neither of which i've gotten to yet.)

so, anyway. the other day, efvf touched on the fact that, for both of us, using our brains had gotten us in rather a lot of trouble - more trouble, in fact, than listening to our gut would have, which is frustrating given that 1) we both try to be critical thinking kinds of people and it sucks when that backfires and 2) we both know better.

soon after (ok, it was probably hours, but that's relatively soon), i watched a lecture called the intelligence of the unconscious and got bogged down with self-derisive laughter around the 12 minute mark, where he's talking about methods of choosing a mate with your logical brain and a list of pros and cons versus going with your hunches and how well that works out for people.

oh. heh.

naturally, my computer froze up just after that bit, so i skittered around some more and came to sway - the irresistible pull of irrational behavior. now, THIS is why, when we get into those kinds of situations where we thought too much to begin with, start to think more pseudo logically and less critically, even when we're overthinking it. this is how otherwise presumably intelligent people (not saying i'm one of them, mind you, but i know one or two) stay mired in intolerable situations.

this is pretty much what i've been saying periodically in this whole journal. *grin* and yet...

yep.

ok, you can go get with the fun stuff now.
Dec. 17th, 2008 @ 04:12 am confessions of a decorator-holic
cheeeeeeeese!
i may have to consider revising my opinion on tucking the sheets in at the end of the bed from "gweh! tool of ssssatan!" to "you know this really isn't so bad if you don't squinch it down and look how pretty it is."

...but not the sides. there is no excuse for tucking the sides. why would you do that? holy neck roll pillows WHY? seriously, just say no to tucking sheets in on the sides of the bed. there are duvets and comforters to compensate for that shit.
Dec. 17th, 2008 @ 04:09 am withdrawal
3 toes on one foot
OH NOES I AM OUT OF MY MARGUERITA-FLAVORED LIP GLOSS I HAVE LIP BRUSHED IT OUT OF THE BOTTOM AND EVERYTHING OHMYGAWD WHAT WILL I DOOOO?

I AM NOT EVEN KIDDING.
Nov. 3rd, 2008 @ 02:28 am NaNo update
nanowin
ok. so far, i've unexpectedly added an act of sabotage and a hitchhiker with more than a little something wrong with him, and i think i have just now figured out what's haunting sethie and his love life. i still don't know how to get tooner arrested, or what his real name is so i can put it on the police report, and i still don't know the name of my main character/narrator at all. i haven't yet used the origami spider bedtime story or added a trebuchet. i haven't even added a random 2x4. ooo! i might do the punch bowl scene next!

i've also decided that if i need to beef up word count, i will go back and describe the sex scene instead of the sabotage, and i think it's about time for another song.

two days, 6,300 words, still no real plot. but no deaths yet this year, either.

so far.
Oct. 24th, 2008 @ 05:42 am click-n-ship!
caffeine
wow. bpal is shipping with lightning speed these days.

yay!
Oct. 19th, 2008 @ 07:28 pm haylp!
sculder
my buddy and fellow iowan (and a far more serious and talented blogger than i) has alerted me to the plight of the podcast studio. so i'm getting the word out. time is short; please do what you can. thanks!

(update: the studio has been closed for various reasons. they raised most of the money, which they are returning.)

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